Just Once by Glenda

Glenda is the grandmother to precious Kaeden who was stillborn on June 1st 2013.  She shares with us the poem she wrote about her experience.

Just once we held you in our arms

‘Twas more than we could bear

To see you lying oh so still

Our teardrops in your hair

Just once we watched the only bath

Your daddy gave to you

His tears were added to the depth

Of love he has for you!

Just once we put your nappy on

And fixed it firm in place

You did not squirm, you did not kick

It will not be replaced

Just once we dressed you in your clothes

The only ones you’ll wear

And placed you in your Mummy’s arms

So she could dry your hair

Just once she whispered in your ear

And kissed your chubby cheek

The dreams and hopes she had for you

All fallen in a heap

Just once your daddy hugged you tight

But little did we know

He held you through that long, dark night

Not wanting to let go!

Just once we watched with aching heart

Your mummy count your toes

You picked up the Jamaican part

You have your Mumm’s nose

...Definitely the Jamaican bits

You also have her lips!

We heard your newborn cry – not once

Nor saw your smiling face

No gleam of mischief in your eye

No strength to your embrace

You’ll never hear your name – not once

No tiny footsteps take

Our lives will never be the same

Without you here awake

We’ll tuck you into bed – not once

Nor listen to your prayer

Your birthdays we will celebrate

But you will not be there!

Each night your parents wake with tears

And listen for your cry

But empty silence greets their ears

And broken they ask, ‘why’

BUT

We trust our Father up above

Though you are now asleep

God comforts us with His great love

I know He cares and weeps

Forever you’ll be in our hearts

Until we meet with joy

No one will ever take your place

Kaelen – our precious baby boy!

©Glenda McClintock